writing is hard for me

be it blog posts, emails, or a journal i always keep wanting to write the perfect words and end up not writing. this actually is true for a lot of things in my life, "if you're gonna do it, do it very good". but i'm not very good, and i wont be unless i do things badly first.

the fact that this is badly written hurts me inside and makes me want to delete it and stop writing but i'll (hopefully) continue.

the takeaway here is:

do bad things